Chapter Four : Right By My Side
SB starred into her eyes while she talked. He couldn't think about anything but her lips touching his. He knew he loved her but after that kiss he knew they had to be together! But after he daydreamed for about 5 minutes he noticed Nicki rambling on and on about NOTHING.
SB grabbed her face so they were looking eye to eye. "I'm still your bestfriend, talk to me like I am" Nicki started to cry on SB's chest, SB couldn't figure out was was wrong so he just held her until he fell asleep too. About an hour later Nicki whispered "SB carry me to the bathroom" in a cute little whining voice. Before he even opened his eyes from his nap he was on his way up the stairs with Nicki in his arms like a little baby. She looked at him and smiled, "what you pain in the butt?" He laughed, "Safaree!" "More like servant isn't it? Isn't that how you see me!?" Nicki couldn't believe he felt like that. She was quiet until they reached the bathroom, he put her down and tried to walk back downstairs but Nicki grabbed his arm and pulled him into her room. She pushed him on the bed and text her mom saying "it's time".
SB didn't know what to think. Nicki went and locked the door, he didn't want to have sex with her so he was confused. "Is this her way of saying sorry? I could never use her this way" SB thought to hisself. "Nicki what are you doing?" "Safaree just wait!" She paced around the room for about 5 minutes thinking of what to say until SB once again broke the silence. "You don't have to do or say anything you don't mean, remember that" Nicki laughed, "I swear you always think you teaching somebody something boy". SB side smiled and continued to sit on the bed. Nicki walked over and say on his lap. She looked him in his eyes and took a deep breath. Then she said, "Don't make a sound til I'm finished". SB shook his head.
Nicki began " Okay , remember that day we met in 2nd grade? I think about it everyday how we would hold hands under the table and always be partners so we would go work on projects at each others house. I miss those days but we always did everything as bestfriends but there's something I need to tell you. SB tried to cut in "Nicki..." "Shut up Safaree", she interrupted. He smiled and nodded his head to tell her to go on. " I don't wanna ruin this friendship! I can't loose you! You've been RIGHT BY MY SIDE since I can remember but I have feelings for you. Deep ass feelings Safaree, but you don't see them. She started to cry while his eyes got wide. He picked her up and held her close. "Can I talk now?" Nicki smiled and rolled her eyes. "Seriously, I've felt the same way, I just didn't wanna ruin the friendship. I think having you as a friend was easier than loosing you to my dumb ass feelings. But Onika......." She looked up at him as he trailed off. He laughed while You know how long your mom has been telling me to tell you?" But Nicki didn't laugh she just looked at him. She cried more while she got up and walked out the room into the bathroom. She sat on the floor and cried.
"Hi Onika"
"Mommy why?, Why'd you do that?"
"Why are you crying!? What's wrong"
"I told you I'd do it! Now I have no idea if he loves me for me or if he has feelings because you told him I did first. Mom now I'll never know"
*sb was standing outside the door listening while Nicki cried more*
"Onika listen"
"No ! I'm done listening now ill never know if he really loves me" Nicki hung up and walked outside the bathroom right into SB's stomach. She looked up with red puffy eyes and tried to play it cool, "sorry I took so long, had to fix my hair" she half smiled and walked away.
SB said he was going home he left, no hug no kiss on the cheek no smile, he slammed her room door then left her sitting on her bed. He didn't go home, just into the living room and cried. Her mom came in to find him. She sat next to him and held him. "She took it all back", he cried. "I knew she would" he cried onto her shoulder. "ONIKA GET DOWN HERE NOW" her mother yelled. Nicki stormed out her room and down the stairs to see SB trying to hide his face. "Safaree?" She looked worried. " I never saw you cry! What's wrong". It was quiet. Finally her mom spoke up. "Your the problem Onika, you've been his problem for years and now you need to be the solution" Then she looked at SB and he gave her a worried look and he shook his head telling her to stop. She got up and walked out. She whispered to her... "He's always been right by your side Onika... Fix it...."
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