😭

SB spent almost 3 hours re-reading that note. He couldn't believe it. He never felt more useless in his life. It just felt like a bad dream that he couldn't wait to wake up from. His phone kept ringing but he wouldn't even check it because he already knew it wasn't her.

*Meanwhile at Nickis house*

Nicki sat on her bed crying. She couldn't believe it was over between her and Safaree. At the moment that's what she wanting but now she regretted it. Alls she wanted from him was for h to show interest in being with her physically. She wasn't sure why because she knew she wasn't ready for sex but it made her feel ugly that he didn't even try. Nicki sat holding her phone waiting for him to call for hours. After a while she gave up and called him. But it was going straight to voice mail.

*sb house

He picked up his phone and dialed Nickis number. He was upset at the fact she sent him to voice mail. He called over and over but got no response. 

What they didn't know is that they've both been calling each other so it would ring busy. It's only been a few hours but the note has been ringing in both of their minds. 

' I can see you don't want me so I'm not going to force it any more. I'm sure you have some one making you happy. Good bye SB ' 

That's the note she left on his bathroom mirror. SB knew she was upset but not enough to end it. SB got dressed and started to get together what he was going to say to get her back. Only problem was he couldn't find his keys. Then he realized he doesn't lock the door anyway so he just left. He took the 15 minute walk to her house instead of driving. He still needed time to get his head right. He lifted his fist to knock but missed the door. He looked up and realized Nicki was opening the door as he was about to knock. He looked at her and suddenly he couldn't remember what ha had prepared to say. Nicki finally stopped crying but she had on her famous pout face and her eyes were still a little red. SB didn't talk he just hugged her and to his surprise she didn't resist. She pulled back a little after a while but he wouldn't let go. "I need you Onika" she heard him whisper. 

"I need you too Llyod" she said with a slight smile. "What took you so long?" She hugged him tighter and asked. 

"I wasn't sure what to do. But I couldn't let the love of my life slip away".

Nicki was silent and kept hugging him. When he said "love of his life" it caught her off guard. She was so lost in her thoughts she didn't realize she was still holding him. She also didnt realize how tight her grip had gotten. 

"Nika? Baby I can't breathe!" 

"Sorry SB" she said letting go and walking into the house. 

"Whoa. SB? What did I do?"

Nicki sighed as she sat on the couch. 

SB didn't want to push her so he started talking and hoped she would come around sooner or later. 

"You know what today reminded me of?" 

Nicki looked up. "No...?" 

"Remember that time you said you hated me?" 

*flashback*

     "I hate you Safaree" Nicki yelled from behind the locked bathroom door. 

"But Nic I'm sorry" SB whispered back. "Just leave I hate you". At those words SB slide to the floor of the door and silently cried. Nicki thought he finally left which made her mad. "How the hell could he leave when I'm so upset" she thought. 

*end of flashback* 

"Remember how mad you were when you thought I left? Even though you told me too?" When Nicki didn't answer he looked over to her and saw the tears in her eyes. "What Nicki!? Talk to me!" 

"Fuck you Safaree" she got up and walked away. 

Fuck it

SB turned around surprised that Nicki was yelling at him then he realized she was naked and couldn't stop starring. She was so pissed at him. She kept on yelling "ANSWER MY QUESTION SAFAREE! AM I NOT GOOD ENOUGH? FUCK IT. FUCK THIS. FUCK YOU AND FUC...." Before she could finish he had her pressed against the counter. She could feel him getting excited on her leg. Being a virgin she got scared. She was surprised. He never took any interest until now. He started rubbing her leg and kissing her neck passionately until she pushed him off. She thought she was ready but now in this moment she could tell she wasn't. She tried to apologize but when she moved closer he backed away. "I tried staying away Onika, you just ALWAYS have to do things your way!" She didn't think he had a right to be mad so of course she told him that. He couldn't believe her, "Onika I have been trying sooooo hard lately to not look at you in that way. Yes with all that body I have been able to look past it." "Why don't you want me Faree?" Nicki said sadly. "It's not that I don't want you, God knows I do" he said stepping closer, "I just wanna move slow babe you have to understand that! I love you" Nicki just turned around and went back upstairs. She didn't know why she was still mad but she was furious. She got dressed and walked out the front door after yelling "don't think about calling me". Nicki didn't notice but she had alot of days like this. She would get mad for nothing and push him away then she'd be lonely and get mad at him for being away. For the last weeks he's put up a with it. He figured her out quickly. That's one thing she hated. SB was probably the only person who knew the whole truth about her and still loved her anyway. SB went to take a cold shower to help out his 'situation' he figured he would fix everything once he came out. But to his surprise Nicki got in the shower with him. He was going to apologize but to his surprise she said sorry. "Safaree, I don't want a relationship like my parents had" Nicki said when they finished their shower and were walking back into his room naked. SB pulled Nicki into a kiss. "And I promise in sickness and health I will never put you through that". Nicki started to laugh, "SB we aren't married" SB whispered...."not yet". Before she could ask what he said his phone rang. Saved by the bell huh? "Get dressed meet me down stairs in 10" he said slapping her butt.
"Hello?"
"Okay"
"Thursday Night...?"
"I will see if I can free my schedule"
"Yes you're the best! Bye".
Realizing he left the door cracked Nicki walked closer to hear the conversation. From his side of the conversation she felt he was hiding something. "was he lying to me? He doesn't want me cause he has someone else" Nicki thought to herself.
*downstairs*
SB was in the living room for about an hour now. It was Friday and he wanted to take Nicki out. He told her 10 minutes hoping it would make her move faster but he didn't hear any movement up there for a while so he decided to check on her. "Nic!?" He yelled when he didn't see her in the room. "WTF? Where is she?" He thought out loud. SB was getting tired of her games and mood swings. He could never do anything nice for her. He loved her with all his heart but was it worth it? SB gave up looking for her realizing she was gone. He went in the bathroom and found a note taped to the mirror.

Long Time Coming (Part One)

*2 Weeks Later*
It was 11PM and SB was home laying in bed. He couldn't sleep because of all the thunder. He wasn't scared but he just knew Nicki never slept threw that so he decided to call her.
"Nika, baby you okay?"
"Yeah Faree I'm fin-ne" she jumped a little as she finished the sentence because of the thunder.
"So why do you sound scared?"
"Faree leave me alone" they both laughed. "I miss you" she pouted.
"I miss you too!"
"So why won't you come see me?"
"I just can't"
"Are you cheating on me?"
"What!? Onika stop! I gotta go."
When SB hung up he just shook his head. Yeah he hadn't seen her in two days but cheating? Really? He reached over and turned out his light after sending her a goodnight text saying he loved her he turned over and quickly fell asleep. SB didn't want to stay away but he felt he had to.
Lately SB couldn't control himself. He always wanted Nicki but he was always able to live with out having sex with her. But lately? That's all he thought about. He decided if he stayed away for a while the desire would go away. But with his luck it didn't. He dreamed about making love to her every night and every night it got better and better. But what he didn't know is that she felt the same way about him.
When SB woke up the next morning he was scared half to death when he felt someone laying next to him causing him to fall off the bed. He smirked and shook his head when he realized it was Nicki. By this time she was already up but laying there pretending to be sleeping. He yanked the cover off of her and she innocently smiled.
"Morning baby!"
"Good morning Nika, what you doing here?" At first she didn't answer but when she finally did it was a little above a whisper. "Well I missed you and I remembered that key you left.... You know just in case? So I kinda... Used it to sneak in" she frowned. "Baby come here" before he knew it she was stepping from under the covers with only a bra and panties on. "Whoa never mind! Where are your clothes?" ".....I never sleep with more than this on..." "Okay well stay under the cover until I leave the room, meet me in the kitchen." Nicki was hurt by this, was she really not sexy? It was one thing for him to respect her body and love her for her and not her body, but to neglect it? Show it no affection? Pay it no attention? That wasn't okay with her.
Nicki didn't get dressed, she walked down how she was.
"SAFAREE WHAT THE FUCK IS YOUR PROBLEM!?"
To Be Continued.....

Romans Revenge

SORRRYYYYY IT'S BEEN SO LONGGGGG but here ya go.


"Safaree why don't you just tell me?" Nicki asked innocently. "No Nic, I'm going to give her another chance, but I'm going home. My lip hurts!". SB left, he was slightly mad that Nicki believed he would do something like that but even madder at Jen for saying it. On his way out he ran into her. He planned on walking right past her. He figured her time would come. Jen ran up to Nickis room but before entering she wiped the smile off her face and started to act sad. Nicki had headphones in listening to Lauren Hill. She realized Jen was there but she never acknowledged her presence.
"Hey Nika!" Jen said walking over to her bed. Nicki just kept nodding her head to the beat until she felt it pulled out. "I was talking to you" Jen said angrily. Nicki never saw Jen act like this but it didn't really scared her. Jen starred Nicki in the eyes for about 2 minutes before smirking and walking away. Nicki figured if she ignored Jen she would give up and tell the truth.
A few hours later Nicki was going downstairs because she smelled food realizing it was almost 6PM and she hasn't eaten a thing. As she opened her room door she was slapped to the ground. A tear immediately escaped her eyes. Not because she was hit but mostly because she saw the rage in her mothers eyes. "What the f....." Nicki was cut off by her mother, "I dare you Onika!"
"Mom what was that for!?!?" But she didn't answer she just walked away. Nicki didn't even feel hungry anymore. She just went back in her room and fell asleep.
When she woke up she could hear her moms soft cries from outside her door. Nicki got up and led her mother in without turning on the light. She figured it would be easier for them if they couldn't see each other. Nicki slept for about 4 hours so now it was 10 o clock. Nobody said anything for a while, it was just silent. Not an awkward silence though it was more comfortable. Nicki reached over and grabbed her mothers hand but her mother snatched away. She even refused to sit on the bed. "Onika take a shower and meet me in the living room when you're done." In her mind she was thinking "what the fuck?" But she just nodded her head and headed to the bathroom. The whole time she was wandering what was wrong. Finally giving up she got out the shower an hesitated going downstairs or not. "Onika now!" She didn't know her mom hear come out the bathroom. "I'm just putting my clothes away mom!" Soon Nicki was walking down the stairs and noticed her mothers figure sitting upright on the couch. "Sex?" Nicki didn't know how to answer that. She just stopped in her tracks. "You're having sex in my house?" "WHATTTT!? MOM NO! I swear to..." Nicki stopped because her mom glared at her, daring her to 'swear to god'. "Mommy I promise!" But she got no answer. "I couldn't make him have sex with me no matter what" Nicki whispered as she broke down in tears. "What?" "Mom he isn't attracted to me that way. I won't say he doesn't love me but he won't show it!" Nicki didn't notice but she was now sitting up under her mother like when she was younger and would get into it with SB. "Mommy am I not pretty enough?" Nicki felt like a little kid again. She didn't know why but whenever it came to SB her mother always knew what to do. "Nicki it isn't about sex all the time" Nicki just sighed. "Baby how will I understand if u won't talk to me?". "I don't wanna have sex Ma'. I just...." She trailed off. She could hear Jen at the top of the stairs. Then it started to make sense.
"Mom when we send Jen home lets make sure her mom takes her to military school" her mother was confused by this but she winked and pointed towards Jen then her mom saw the shadow and caught on. "I know! I was on the phone with her mother earlier and we were discussing that!" Jen couldn't believe her ears. Nicki continued, "remember what happened to the little girl down the street that went there?" Nicki began to laugh. "Oh that poor child, I still pray for her although I know it won't help her in there."
Jen came down the stairs furious. "You know I hate you right?" "Jen watch your......" "No mom! Let her get everything out." "Don't defend me, I can't stand you! The way you walk, the way you talk, your perfect life, stupid boyfriend..." By this time they couldn't understand her because she was in tears. Nicki just looked at her 14 year old cousin in disbelief. How could someone so young be so full of hate? "Why did you lie on Safaree?, rape isn't something you play with." "Jennifer! You accused that nice boy of raping you?" But Jen didn't answer, she continued to cry. "So when you told me about Onika having sex in my house, was it true?" Jen shook her head no. "I want you to apologize." "No I'm not apologizing! I just want things how they should be! She doesn't deserve to be happy!". Jen heard a horn beep so she grabbed her bags which she put at the bottom of the steps earlier in the day and walked towards the door. She turned around before completely exiting the house and smiled. "Wow she's going to be quite an actress one day" Mama Maraj joked while Nicki sat in shock.