😭

SB spent almost 3 hours re-reading that note. He couldn't believe it. He never felt more useless in his life. It just felt like a bad dream that he couldn't wait to wake up from. His phone kept ringing but he wouldn't even check it because he already knew it wasn't her.

*Meanwhile at Nickis house*

Nicki sat on her bed crying. She couldn't believe it was over between her and Safaree. At the moment that's what she wanting but now she regretted it. Alls she wanted from him was for h to show interest in being with her physically. She wasn't sure why because she knew she wasn't ready for sex but it made her feel ugly that he didn't even try. Nicki sat holding her phone waiting for him to call for hours. After a while she gave up and called him. But it was going straight to voice mail.

*sb house

He picked up his phone and dialed Nickis number. He was upset at the fact she sent him to voice mail. He called over and over but got no response. 

What they didn't know is that they've both been calling each other so it would ring busy. It's only been a few hours but the note has been ringing in both of their minds. 

' I can see you don't want me so I'm not going to force it any more. I'm sure you have some one making you happy. Good bye SB ' 

That's the note she left on his bathroom mirror. SB knew she was upset but not enough to end it. SB got dressed and started to get together what he was going to say to get her back. Only problem was he couldn't find his keys. Then he realized he doesn't lock the door anyway so he just left. He took the 15 minute walk to her house instead of driving. He still needed time to get his head right. He lifted his fist to knock but missed the door. He looked up and realized Nicki was opening the door as he was about to knock. He looked at her and suddenly he couldn't remember what ha had prepared to say. Nicki finally stopped crying but she had on her famous pout face and her eyes were still a little red. SB didn't talk he just hugged her and to his surprise she didn't resist. She pulled back a little after a while but he wouldn't let go. "I need you Onika" she heard him whisper. 

"I need you too Llyod" she said with a slight smile. "What took you so long?" She hugged him tighter and asked. 

"I wasn't sure what to do. But I couldn't let the love of my life slip away".

Nicki was silent and kept hugging him. When he said "love of his life" it caught her off guard. She was so lost in her thoughts she didn't realize she was still holding him. She also didnt realize how tight her grip had gotten. 

"Nika? Baby I can't breathe!" 

"Sorry SB" she said letting go and walking into the house. 

"Whoa. SB? What did I do?"

Nicki sighed as she sat on the couch. 

SB didn't want to push her so he started talking and hoped she would come around sooner or later. 

"You know what today reminded me of?" 

Nicki looked up. "No...?" 

"Remember that time you said you hated me?" 

*flashback*

     "I hate you Safaree" Nicki yelled from behind the locked bathroom door. 

"But Nic I'm sorry" SB whispered back. "Just leave I hate you". At those words SB slide to the floor of the door and silently cried. Nicki thought he finally left which made her mad. "How the hell could he leave when I'm so upset" she thought. 

*end of flashback* 

"Remember how mad you were when you thought I left? Even though you told me too?" When Nicki didn't answer he looked over to her and saw the tears in her eyes. "What Nicki!? Talk to me!" 

"Fuck you Safaree" she got up and walked away. 

Fuck it

SB turned around surprised that Nicki was yelling at him then he realized she was naked and couldn't stop starring. She was so pissed at him. She kept on yelling "ANSWER MY QUESTION SAFAREE! AM I NOT GOOD ENOUGH? FUCK IT. FUCK THIS. FUCK YOU AND FUC...." Before she could finish he had her pressed against the counter. She could feel him getting excited on her leg. Being a virgin she got scared. She was surprised. He never took any interest until now. He started rubbing her leg and kissing her neck passionately until she pushed him off. She thought she was ready but now in this moment she could tell she wasn't. She tried to apologize but when she moved closer he backed away. "I tried staying away Onika, you just ALWAYS have to do things your way!" She didn't think he had a right to be mad so of course she told him that. He couldn't believe her, "Onika I have been trying sooooo hard lately to not look at you in that way. Yes with all that body I have been able to look past it." "Why don't you want me Faree?" Nicki said sadly. "It's not that I don't want you, God knows I do" he said stepping closer, "I just wanna move slow babe you have to understand that! I love you" Nicki just turned around and went back upstairs. She didn't know why she was still mad but she was furious. She got dressed and walked out the front door after yelling "don't think about calling me". Nicki didn't notice but she had alot of days like this. She would get mad for nothing and push him away then she'd be lonely and get mad at him for being away. For the last weeks he's put up a with it. He figured her out quickly. That's one thing she hated. SB was probably the only person who knew the whole truth about her and still loved her anyway. SB went to take a cold shower to help out his 'situation' he figured he would fix everything once he came out. But to his surprise Nicki got in the shower with him. He was going to apologize but to his surprise she said sorry. "Safaree, I don't want a relationship like my parents had" Nicki said when they finished their shower and were walking back into his room naked. SB pulled Nicki into a kiss. "And I promise in sickness and health I will never put you through that". Nicki started to laugh, "SB we aren't married" SB whispered...."not yet". Before she could ask what he said his phone rang. Saved by the bell huh? "Get dressed meet me down stairs in 10" he said slapping her butt.
"Hello?"
"Okay"
"Thursday Night...?"
"I will see if I can free my schedule"
"Yes you're the best! Bye".
Realizing he left the door cracked Nicki walked closer to hear the conversation. From his side of the conversation she felt he was hiding something. "was he lying to me? He doesn't want me cause he has someone else" Nicki thought to herself.
*downstairs*
SB was in the living room for about an hour now. It was Friday and he wanted to take Nicki out. He told her 10 minutes hoping it would make her move faster but he didn't hear any movement up there for a while so he decided to check on her. "Nic!?" He yelled when he didn't see her in the room. "WTF? Where is she?" He thought out loud. SB was getting tired of her games and mood swings. He could never do anything nice for her. He loved her with all his heart but was it worth it? SB gave up looking for her realizing she was gone. He went in the bathroom and found a note taped to the mirror.